About Why I Blog

It’s been over a year now since I started writing this blog. In some ways, it feels like a silly thing to do, spending a couple hours a week working on something that just seems to dissolve into the blogosphere – time I spend beating my brains and the keyboard into submission when I could be reading or Netflix-ing or even doing something virtuous, like cleaning the bathroom.

Although I started out with two posts a week, I have fallen into a much more comfortable once-weekly posting schedule – not onerous and yet, strict enough. I hesitate to break this chain, even if it means resorting to filling up this space with old material that I still find amusing, in spite of the fact that I wrote it myself, some of it nearly twenty years ago.

And so, in honor of the ninth month on the calendar, my favorite, here are nine musings on why I blog:

  1. As I have already alluded to, chains are hard to break. While sometimes quitting something can be seen as necessary to further other goals, blogging is still working for me. It keeps me writing a minimal amount, even if that is only editing and formatting.
  2. I like being a blogger. It gives credence to the idea that I want to be called a writer. I write, therefore I Am A Writer.
  3. If I didn’t blog/write, then memories and thoughts would slide into oblivion. Case in point, when I re-read old columns I used to submit to the Vermilion Standard, that I now re-publish here sometimes, I am surprised by what I forgot – things that I don’t want to forget. Like funny things my kids said or I how I felt when the Twin Towers went down.
  4. I believe in the power of individual memory. While one person’s diary can primarily reflect a single experience, it can also shed light on the experience of the collective. Anne Frank, while writing from a teenager’s perspective, memorialized the experience of many more than just herself and her family hiding from the Nazis in World War II Germany.
  5. I haven’t really publicized my blog enough (#goals) on Instagram or Facebook (even though I have intended to since I began this blog), so I have a very tiny subscriber following. However, the occasional comment I receive or the in-person discussions about my latest post with a reader keeps me in touch with people that I talk to often or rarely. And human contact, especially for introverted writers, is GOOD. I like the conversation.
  6. I find that writing on a computer is different from writing by hand in my journal. I am able to capture ideas faster. Sometimes the tactile-ness of the keys seems to move me forward, keeps me going. Sure I could write on my computer other than the blog but the blog keeps me minimally accountable, keeps me coming back to the keyboard.
  7. I write to find out what I think. It never fails to surprise me that what I start out with is almost never what I end up with. It’s become fun to see what happens when I follow the bread crumbs I leave scribbled on the blank index cards I’ve learned to keep nearby: Mr. Dressup, Ukrainian weddings, the worst jobs I’ve had and what I learned, Winnie-the-Pooh and why I love children’s literature so much. (All possible forth-coming posts.)
  8. Blogging is a great challenge. I’ve learned (and continue to learn) a lot about blogging and setting up a website. Learning new stuff is SO GOOD for the brain, both old ones and new ones. And things that I said I would never be interested in (like promoting myself on social media) now don’t seem so heinous. It’s just part of the job.
  9. I want to leave something behind. This may be the most important. In many ways, this blog is part of my ongoing quest to leave behind a personal and family history. And reading about keeping personal memoirs, I have learned it all counts: the marginalia written in favorite books, handwritten recipes with annotations, the indecipherable script on the backs of old photos. And of course, personal diaries, journals and blogs.

I think I will keep going.

About Hatchet

One of the good things about homeschooling my kids was that I sort of taught myself how to become a teacher. I never wanted to teach other people’s kids but I loved mine enough to give it a shot. Lucky for me, there were a lot of people who paved the way ahead of me and freely passed out the keys to providing kids with a decent education.

Of course, I have always thought that books were pretty foundational. Not necessarily textbooks, which while providing a framework for progressivity, could also be like eating dry toast for breakfast. Every. Day. How happy was I to learn that much of what we had to cover in Social Studies or Language Arts or Science could be found in Living Books. Meaning real stories written by real people. Even Math could be dissected by picture books and History plumbed with a great novel.

My love of literature started a long time ago in the basement of our farmhouse where an odd assortment of books had collected on the shelves. There were outdated textbooks, some Pulitzer Prize winners, MAD magazine digests, and the first kid’s books I knew. I suspected that The Cat in the Hat Comes Back was a sequel by its title, but as it was the only one we had, it was the only Dr. Suess that I knew. Homer Price, The House at Pooh Corner, The Middle Sister, The Big Wave, The Magic Tunnel populated the shelves, as well as a few of the Thornton W. Burgess, Nancy Drew, Trixie Belden, Hardy Boys and Donna Parker series.

The only library in our little town was in the Derwent school and because I showed so much enthusiasm for reading, the librarian soon let me look at the book catalogs that came across her desk and asked for my suggestions when it came to spending your hard-earned tax dollars for our little library collection. How cool was that?

What I didn’t realized was that some of the best descriptions, especially for books that graced the covers of the catalogs and the tops of the pages, were for award winning books. I never paid attention when I was in school to the gold stickers that were on the front of Really Good Books: the Caldecott Award and the John Newbery. Fast forward to the early 2000s, when I started reading How to Homeschool books in earnest, I discovered that there were many more of these magical lists, these Good Books that would not only entertain me my children, but teach them Very Good Things, too.

Hatchet by Gary Paulsen was one of those Good Books. Between the lines of a story of parents getting divorced, the protagonist Brian Robeson boards a plane at the beginning of summer break to go see his father who now lives in Canada, somewhere remote enough that a two-seater plane is the method of transport. As if just being a zit-spackled teenager caught in between your parents isn’t bad enough, Brian’s pilot suffers a heart attack and they plummet to the ground to their death. The End.

Just kidding. Brian (but not the pilot) survives the crash and he is pitted against the wilderness, desperately trying to stay alive until somebody can find him, like a needle in a stack of needles. All The Bad Wilderness Things happen to him: hunger, cold, rain, mosquitoes, moose attacks, nightmares about the dead pilot coming to get him, but somehow Brian uses his wits to figure out How to Do Everything With Only A Hatchet.

The Hatchet was a gift his mother gave him before he left which he luckily wore on his belt, surviving along with Brian when the plane, dead pilot and Everything Else That Would Have Been Useful wind up at the bottom of the lake. It turns out to be the key to everything in Brian’s survival.

Brian’s story – parts of which are based on the author’s real experiences living rugged in the bush – was so “enchanting” to Paulsen’s readers that they wrote to him and demanded: More Brian! And so Paulsen gave his adoring public more. The Hatchet series includes The River, Brian’s Winter, Brian’s Hunt, and Brian’s Return, all nice neat little books that you could read in a few hours or find as an audiobook at your local library read by Peter Coyote.

With the Brian books, I can vicariously survive with him in the woods because I have no intention of EVER getting stranded in the wilderness, in Vermilion Provincial Park or even in my backyard. I’m not exactly what you would call a gamer when it comes to the Great Outdoors. I prefer My Outdoors to be 20 above and wind-less, with a cooler of hot dogs and coolers on the deck and a warm bed awaiting me inside four walls. With electricity. And bug spray. No moose.

But.

The Brian Books remind me that with a little bit of ingenuity, we humans can survive a lot, almost anything really. We only need to look back at the last few months when we were first tossed into the COVID-a-tron to know that we can put up with a lot. And sometimes the way to get through the next unknown is to remember what you have already done. Brian, via Paulsen, returned to the woods again and again, because he knew he COULD do it again. And the last time, he did take bug spray.

About Jerkury, The Undiscovered Planet

(With kids back to school this week, here’s a throwback to our homeschooling days with our three little spacemen.)

            This week in our house, we’re discovering the final frontier. No, I’m not talking about the dust-bunny village under my bed or the dark recesses of the furnace room, although both are rather scary places. The kids have been learning all about outer space and not just because we are threatening to send them there.

            This expedition was kicked off by a simple bedroom renovation. Maybe we were being doting parents or maybe we didn’t know what we were really getting into (most assuredly the latter), but a couple of months ago we decided to create a spaceship themed room for the three boys. With a little manipulation, we were able to steer the brothers in this direction and even make them think it was their idea, since their suggestion of a castle bedroom with full-sized knight in shining armor daunted me just a little more than stenciling a few portholes and planets on the freshly painted walls.

            And so, after a few days of studying the sun, stars and so on, I find I’m learning a lot more than I bargained for. After all, can there be a larger subject than the cosmos? Most of the speculation of how stars are “born” and black holes could be used to travel through time is where science fiction found its origin. No wonder George Lucas and Gene Roddenberry made so much money plumbing the subject that has no limit.

            Children don’t have the same difficulty with entertaining such notions as do skeptical adults. Their minds as wide as the universe itself, they dispute nothing and marvel at everything: that Venus is hotter than Mercury which is closer to the Sun; that Jupiter is 1400 times larger than the Earth (more impressive if demonstrated with appropriately sized paper circles) and that dogs and people have rocketed into oblivion on their own volition. (Well, maybe the dogs had to be convinced.)

            While reading about the characteristics of the Milky Way’s family, the boys entertained themselves by yelling “stupider than Jupiter” and then collapsing into mad giggles. I was thinking that the phrase was very apt for anyone who would volunteer to leave the nice safe atmosphere of Earth to live in a spaceship where you had to sleep seat-belted to your bed. (If there’s a time I appreciate gravity, it’s when I sleep.) But all giggles aside, the gray matter in the boys’ heads soaks all this stuff up, if maybe not the correct names for everything. At one point, Tim tried to tell to me that the largest planet was named Jerkury. I suspected that although this planet was yet undiscovered by Earthlings, it probably had sent more than a few “ambassadors” here and presented a good explanation as to where grouchy people really come from.

            Much to my surprise, I found myself one evening when my husband was away curled up in bed with the oversized Dorling Kindersley Guide to Space and smaller but just as interesting Everything You Wanted to Know about Johannes Kepler But Were Afraid to Ask. I was riveted to the bed (without a seatbelt) and the subject matter. Earlier that day while the boys were testing the theory of gravity by dropping dangerously heavy objects from the tops of chairs and spinning pails of water over their head to imitate centrifugal force, I was my most captive audience as I read aloud the story of Galileo and wept as he succumbed to the Inquisition by refuting his theories about the Earth revolving around the Sun instead of the then popular vice versa.

            While I wonder to myself how I could forget (or never have learned) such interesting stuff, my sudden fascination with the subject at hand is very comforting. After all, the idea of trying to teach your children everything is overwhelming. At any rate, what they don’t learn when they’re young, they can still look up when they’re 35.

About Weeds

Oh, the tenacity!

It’s been a weird year. (Oh, sorry. I should have started with the caveat that I would introduce this post with a Magnificent Understatement.)

For starters there was the COVID. I was reminiscing just yesterday morning about how I used to go to the local library and peruse the shelves, TOUCH THE BOOKS, and not even think twice about how much fun that was. We used to eat free samples at Costco, high five strangers at hockey games and plan vacations with hotels and amusement parks. We even used to think that the United States was relatively harmless.

On a personal note, we sold a business which changed my job from going in to an office regularly to exclusively working from home. This happened to coincide with the whole world #stayinghome so at first it just was part of the General Weirdness. Then everyone that had camped out in my house with me for those two months went back to their regularly scheduled programming, but with face masks and lots and lots of hand sanitizer.

At first, it was pretty weird being Alone In The House Again, but I got used to it because I have a certificate in Introvert Skills. I still went for lots of long walks, because that was A Pandemic Recreation Highlight that I liked. I shopped for groceries (without free samples anywhere) and learned to do pretty much everything, including some grocery shopping, online.

At the beginning of 2020, we had also moved into a new/different house, under cover of a lot of snow. It’s only been about seven months here, but let’s just say, I’m pretty familiar with all the insides of this house. We’ve made changes to suit us better and to make it feel like Home. Most of the square footage of the house gets inspected daily, especially since I got a FitBit and get reminded to complete 250 steps at ten minutes to every hour. I do a couple laps up and down the stairs, check for boogeymen in the bedrooms and pee in the downstairs toilet. If I excel, I get rewarded with a little fireworks celebration on my left wrist when I hit 10,000 steps (not for peeing.)

All this is to say, I seem to be taking the Stay (in the) Home thing kind of seriously, much to the detriment of my yard. Unlike all those other teal, emerald and lime thumbed folks out there who stormed the greenhouses in Spring 2020, I did only my bare minimum of planting lots of tomatoes and a few other plants that would mostly die under my watch.

And then I dug my heels in about the weeds.

All around this “new” house of ours are plenty of gravel beds, the kind that harbour weeds like they were hostages in a Die Hard movie. To add to the matter, these weeds have some kind of Stockholm Syndrome where they don’t want to be released. And NOTHING is so unsatisfying as pulling out the TOP of a weed, knowing you’ve guaranteed its roots to multiply in perpetuity. So I just kinda gave up trying.

But a funny thing has happened. I’m starting to enjoy the weeds. Well, okay, not the weeds exactly, but certainly their tenacity. I mean weeds have this Amazing Ability to Grow Anywhere.

And also: Weeds Have No Shame. We live on a corner lot with one of those gravel beds right there for everyone to inspect as they walk by. There are plenty of weeds already camouflaging the rocks, but there is One Dandelion in particular that just has some attitude. Every day, she stands a little taller and gets a little yellower and I swear, has one leaf bent over one hip. I tell myself that I should go pull (her) out, I make reminder notes in my daily planner to do it, I write freaking blog posts about it this damn dandelion.

But: I kinda wanna see how far she’s gonna take this, y’know. And I’m not exactly going anywhere (especially the United States), so I might as well have something to watch out my front window. If there’s something that needs to be admired right now it’s the ability to flourish in less than optimal circumstances.

What a sassy dandelion.